new agenda

haavent posted anything, i have many things to say, i will finish my final tonight and tell you all about it.

i'm using someone, i'm betraying allot of my beleifs... so i need to tell yall bout it

Mash Up

United State of Pop (Blame It on the Pop)
This is a mashaup thats been floating online for a while, people seemed to like it and asked for it to be posted, it doesnt do much for me though ;(

United State of Pop (Blame It on the Pop)

crazy obssesed freak much?... #9

have you ever met someone and he or she is all up your business?
wanting to know everything about you, giving you all their time, worrying about yoy, talking 24 hours a day to you?
showing you all the intrests in the world?
and when you get intrested in them too, they become crazy obsessive and seriously moody if you didnt call or talk to them?
they catch a case and start really flippin'...
i talk to this person on bb messenger, and we seem to have hit it of, we spoke for about 2 months i think?
daily messages and hours of conversations... we like the same movies the same music... kind of have much in common...
once i went to a party, and i told him i missed someone, i'm currently in a relationship so we often spoke about it, and really i missed that girl like crazy, and even though there was 40 people in this party, i didnt wanna hang with anyone, it was a nice private pool xmass party...
the music was a selection of my favourite house mixes, the food and the drinks were great...
i just missed that girl, so i told him that and he's like stop this crap and go enjoy the party
so i stayed up at the party for over 12 hours - it was a long ass party! - and i kinda left early coz i dont like to party more than 5 hours, my phone died so i didnt recharge it when i got home and i slept, i woke up around 5 pm, and recharged it, then i find a couple of bbm's from him:
1)hi
2)hello
3)shfeek - whats wrong? -
4) are you ok?
5) i'm worried, bbm me!
when i saw it i i immediatly bbmed and talked to him, all he did was give me attitude and say/hint that its billshit.
i told him i didnt even talk to my mom - who also smsed - yet, so i'm serious my phone died!
he sends me an ok, then deletes me off of bbm, removes me from all contact and disappear.

crazy much?
i means seriously, how retarded one could be at this age? when you 27 ur suppost to grow up and be all sane and centered!

i told my friend who hosted the party and the moment i was done he busrted into luaghter saying "only the freaks u know baby s! only the freak u know!!!"
is it true?
i dont get it! i honestly need help with this!

Like A Star

Just Like A Star Across My Sky...
Just Like An Angel Of The Page...
Just Like A song In My Heart...
Just Like Oil On My Hands...


Corinne Bailey Rae (born Corinne Jacqueline Bailey on 26 February 1979) is an English singer-songwriter and guitarist who released her debut album Corinne Bailey Rae in February 2006. Rae was named the number-one predicted breakthrough act of 2006 in an annual BBC poll of music critics, Sound of 2006, She became only the fourth female British act in history to have her first album debut at number one.[citation needed] Rae was nominated for Grammy Awards and BRIT Awards, and has won two MOBO Awards and an Album Of The Year Grammy for her work as an featured artist in Herbie Hancock's River: The Joni Letters. Rae was married to fellow musician, Jason Rae from 2001 until his death in 2008. Rae will release her second album,The Sea on February 2, 2010, after a hiatus of two years. The new album is produced by the duo Steve Brown and Steve Chrisanthou, who produced her debut in 2006...

her voice is just enchanted.... and it most certainly will take you places, i remembered her today when i woke up... i had a shower and a bottle of baby oil fell on my hands... i started staring at the oil and then out of the blue i was singing corinne's song...

Like A Star... this song is absolutely amazing!
and her whole album is breath taking... i simply cant wait for her next effort...
she is a genius!

Like A Star
to BUY her album:
Corinne Bailey Rae

Sorry/Merry Xmass/The Shit!

sorry i havent been posting you guys, i had so many mid-terms!

jesus moses allah god mohammad! they were plenty!

i was on overdirve and redbull overdose!

i was like a severe adhd with too much carb input! - remind me to tell you about some i dated who had adhd! -, any way i'mma post some stuff now :d!



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Merry Xmass Yallllllll!!!

gonna be having xmass dinner at DJ friend ahmed... siging xmass carols and teasing our guests with a preview of the remixes we made for the "absolute" new years party hosted by Absolute vodka, info is hooked here later!

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Now for the main topic.... THE SHIT! *SNAP SNAP*



so, i dont really go all high maintenance on my ass, i mean i wake up, get whatever's clean on the shelf, wear it, and leave the house...

i over shower and over brush my teeth though, i'm super clean but i dont bleach, tweese, pluck and shave 24 hours a day... i shave once a week and thats it!

but if i have finals i tend to let go of my beard... let ot go in alllll directions possible, but i still look decent... i mean... you know johny dep when he's all beardy and scary like, you can see traces of good looks down there eh?

ohhh fuck off, i can see u smirking abou the johny depp thing, i can look better than him, i mean... with the right look and all... i guess... i hope :S



any way!!



so i went to the oral histology lab and mind you, its officially begings at 12:25 pm, but the doctors dont come until 1:00 pm, it has been like that for the past 5 weeks, so we all get in in about 12:55 or 50....



so this week, the head doctor, the teacher's assistant is what they call this kind of person in the "biz"! was giving the lecture instead of the other female doc who always gives the class, so he began at 12:45...
i arrived at 12:55 exactly, i knocked and came in, i requested an entry, he said "your here now? did you want us to wait for your *highness*?" then he continued adressing the class.

i sucked it up coz god knows if i didnt i would bring this shit down on lil' miss thang over there, so i requested to go in again, and i explained that this class always starts at 1 pm, he jumped all up in my business and said "its not my problem i start at 12:45, now its 1 pm" then he went back adressing the class.

i was like HELL TO THE NO!

now i had a run in with that piece of shit before, last year, i was sitting at the back of the class coz i was downing too many stingers the night before, so... u guys know the drill!
so he was asking the student up in the front row about something and then he asked me, i said i didnt know and he said "you know you think your too good looking and that the world revolves around your hair, just becuase you think your hot that doesnt mean you are"...

i didnt answer i gave him a dirty look, he git all purple and green, the student looked at him with disgrace some luaghed and giggled at him, a kid mummbled "what does his looks have to do with the class"

i starred him down.
i didnt say a word, and i thought about it.
you are commenting on my looks and telling me i look ugly?
you're a 300 pounds, triple chinned, truck tire lipped enlarged todler, your nose is extremly suitable to become an air plane landing slide, it wont be a hard task braiding your nose hair since its longer than your own over gelled wet hair, i think i heard the echo of a couple of kids from your jumbo ears, i hope no one is lost in there, you have 7 boobs, each boob has a baby boob of its own, for all i'm concerned you might be a serial killer who hides his victims between the folds of his skin, and you are telling me i am ugly?
bitch please!
you are 300 pounds of genetically modefied crap!
extra body, extra volume and extra smell BABY!

just becuase i didnt answer you academic question that doesnt give you the right to comment on me socially... that is not your business!

now that piece of shit didn't comment or look me in the eye again, but damn is he waiting for me to slip!

over questioning and putting his nose in almost everything!
wtf? get a life cunt, don't mooch over ours!
and you know whats the stinger in this whole extravaganza?
he thinks he's hot!
i wont go on with this, you think about it!

Medina - You & I

Medina (born Andrea Fuentealba Valbak; November 3, 1982 in Aarhus, Denmark) is a Danish-Chilean dance, R&B and hip hop singer and songwriter, she has this amazing song that is on my mind for the past 3 weeks, heard first in a club in cairo with Ellyana DeGrassi - hate ur guts bitch ;p - and i can not! get it outta my head!

i bought the cd, which has a limited edtion version that contains this single...
you oughtta buy the cd and check it out yourself!
to hear the song, check out the link here, a blogger friend send me this link yesterday:

Medina - You & I
And check out the video:

Artist Introduction: Esthero

ok so i thought i would introduce you to some of my favourite artists, so lets begin with esthero... one of my all time fav gals!

this is off of wikipedia: Esthero (born Jenny-Bea Englishman, December 23, 1978 in Stratford, Ontario) is a Canadian singer-songwriter who currently lives in Los Angeles, California. The name Esthero, pronounced [ɛsˈtɛroʊ] es-TAIR-oh, refers both to the singer and formerly to the two-person team of herself and producer Doc. She claims to have got the name by combining the name of the heroine (Esther) and last line ("If I am to be the hero, then I cannot fly from darkness.") of the movie from Sylvia Plath's novel, 'The Bell Jar'.

Esthero's sound characteristically features her voice over a mix of mellow bass lines, jazzy trumpets, Spanish guitar and hip-hop. She is sometimes compared to artists Björk, Portishead and Sade. Later artists who count Esthero among their influences include Res, Fergie and fellow Canadian Nelly Furtado.

Esthero's brother, Jason Englishman, is also a musician.


now the reason i love esthero is: she is so deep, with vocals that will go straight to your core, i was blown off by how talented she is, with songs like, heaven sent, i dirve alone, windmills of your mind, lounge, superheroes, wikked lil' girls and O.G Bitch... esthero really raised the bar for me...

now i want to post all live video's so you'd understand my state of mind and why i am In Love With Her!











now a couple of studio versions :D





And Her Mater Pieces!!!

Anal Much?

why is everyone emailing about how to have anal sex with indian chicks?
i dont get it, what do i look like?
see i dont do indian chick!
with all do respect, indian women are beautiful the have this mystique look and exotic features and the long hard to resist hair...
but anal oh la bumbai is seriously not my thing.
i never saw the appeal in curry fudge...

nor i'm into any extra spiced up fudge, you see fugde is not whats on my top list...
and the guys at school BBM me or IM thinking i'm some kind of samantha anal hot line!
i swear if i get one more sms about how to do anal without the chocolate surprises i will stuff my throat with over used panties for an obese belly dancing arabian princess panties, one with extra addtional glitter!

i'm tiered of saying "tell her to use an enema" you know how creepy that sounds when someone over hears you?

once a guy called naif told me he didnt know if that spot on his sex hypo was a moll or a dodo!

a dodo?
disgusting!

and then he started to tell me how it looked like a lentil!
maaaan!!
why do you have to ruin my day and a very popular seed!

the horror!
you, i can't believe this, but i wish i would go back to the social nobody who kept to himself and listen to his ipod, all this bullshit started when i walked into blue ribbon with that slut who just wanted free drinks...

i wish i kept to myself!

you know what, i'mma says this once and for all!
use an enema, go slow, lube lube lube, anal go with condoms, NO VASELINE!, and some hannah montana music!

now BITE ME!

Cover Songs

A cover song is a song performed by someone else besides the original artist, it doesnt necesseraly mean its better than the original, but sometimes It's HELLA GOOD!

now, my favorite cover songs are usually by lily allen and garbage - bow to the rockness -, sia does and amazing job on "I Go To Sleep" posted earlier, and paramores redhead queen.

john lennon, oasis, no doubt, garbage, lily allen, squeeze, sting, the clash, britney, michael and many many others are performers who's songs were covered, shows like glee are famous for doing it, but its either hit or mess, never in between, they did a great job in defying gravity and don't stop believing - which i dont like much, i personally perferf mercy and rehab -, but they did an awful job on many songs, one being one of my ultimate favs "smile - lily allen".

here's a couple of covered songs, listen to them and see if you like the original more.
If You Like Them, Be Sure to purchase:
1-Eva Cassidy's CD'S
2-Punk Goes... CD's
3-Oasis, lily allen, garbage, Sia CD's because i can't get enough of them!


sia - gimme more
http://www.4shared.com/get/106823897/65dd80d8/Sia_-_Gimme_Gimme_More.html

marie digby - umberella
www.mediafire.com/?sbhin3gkycy

lily allen - dont get me wrong
www.mediafire.com/?nymoiqdajmg


Wonderwall - Cat Power
www.mediafire.com/?jtlymzmwmji

use somebody - paramore
www.mediafire.com/?domiteymyzo

milow - ayo technology
www.mediafire.com/?mjtue4mymnm


heartless - the fray
www.mediafire.com/?ucm2tjimdy5


no doubt - its my life
www.mediafire.com/?mzimqzrexyt

alvin and the chipmunks
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=72WYVXT7


anya marina - whatever you like
http://www.mediafire.com/?tei3nm4mdth

and my absolute favorite these couple of days :D

Lily Allen - Naive
www.mediafire.com/?21znthu2g5y

Note: Songs here were posted by other blogs, i take no legal rights for any of them and... most of them are live cover so freely ditrebuted among fans :).

OMG! We R So BFF'S!

i'm social, i guess, i mean i know many people, i hang out with allot of peeps, i tend to be at the rather cool parties sometimes, which leave the hideous awful ones for most of the time ;), i eat out with friends, chill and smoke up with a few.

but like so many others i tend to choose one group to... stick with, kinda like wolves in a pack... well most likely goats in a herd now that i think about ut!

i tend to believe my... pack!
i have a certian trust when it comes around them, so when my "friends" said baby s. get a Black berry we'd bbm and stay in touch when you're in cairo, omg that would be awesome, you would have to spend much to communicate with us, no need for emails, just zap! and u tell us whats going on and we tell you, OMG OMG OMG! etc... etc...!

terns out... its a loud of crap!
see i found out when you are not in the same region as your fellow goats, the goats dont communicate much with you, they either envy you for what you have or they replace you with a mediocere version of you, who honestly, look worse, talk trash and seriously seriously in need to gain a prospective about them selves, cuase having a beer gut is not sexy at all!

now, what spawned this topic is the fact that i was having drinks with an old friend last weeks, he's a tele-marketer, rather well known in the arab world, not by face but by name, he told me about how he traveled from kuwait to london to study marketing and ideology - something that to this day i can't possibly comprehend! -, and how he felt alone even though he knew about 700 people and he was out all night.

i jumped in and said that it might be because he was single, but he gave me that look, that made me reliese.... i'm single and thats not a reason to feel alone!

he told me that his feeling was because of the fact that the people who he thought we're real companions werent at all for real, explaining further more, he told me that they stayed the same, they got in touch but he found that when worse comes to worst they wouldnt stick up to him, they would just pep talk him, and idea we certainly both agreed on is that... they were not worth it.

a marlboro light later and an espresso got us to the point that real friends are the one who you start your friendship at childhood, school and after college.

and he didnt explain more becuase we had to abrubtly change the subject when his date arrived but i got to thinking...
was it true?

well... yes!

in a way, people who know you from childhood got accostomed to you and undertood your behaviour, people in school were forced to see you everyday, unlike people in college, and after college, work wise and social life wise, no one will be forced to be with you unless they wanted to.

that doesnt mean one has to wait untill after college to bond with someone and become real friends, because many have real friends in the periods we exluded, but it makes sense and it is simply understandable to me.

now i'm not saying that the all friends i have now wont last or whatever, but currently, most of them are not worth my time, i spend my time with 3 people now, and we go along will, having known them for a year now and we dont have much trouble spending time together.

instead of fighting over something we have a healthy argument, which is absolutly nicer than yelling and screeching, maybe its becuase they're well educated and have good self asteam...
maybe!

but i gotta tell ya!
this BFFFF doesnt really appeal to me any more, i like an F, suits me better, and a hella of allot more decent than the b triple double f's!

Sorry

sorry i havent posted anything my internet crashed, i'mma post now :)

end of hiatus

each time i wrote, i had one more last thing to write, each time i said a word, i had one more last thing to say.
i had too much built in, i wanted to talk, i wanted to say whats wrong, i wanted to scream and say i was going crazy, i litrally thought i was crazy.
all i wanted is to hurt someone so bad that they'll forget their names and remember mine instead.
i had too much built in...
i tried talking to my friends and all they gave was the "its all going to be ok sweety" with the look of "dramatic much?" in their eyes.

i lost touch with many people, i've stopped being friends with allot of people, i gained the friendship of one or two, but i renewed and revived the friendship of one person, and honestly... it was worth it.

i didnt know how to begin, and i sure didnt know how to end or what to end with...
i lost track of who i am and what i meant to myself.
even when i looked in the mirror, i noticed that i've changed, i started to look worse...
my skin was dry out of life... i looked like a corpse... pale...
my hair got in touch with my depression, my eyes decided to tell everyone about my sleeping habbits and about the joy rides i took, my body numbed by all what that word means, no more come hither...

as the days passed by nothing resonated but the echo of emptyness...
i've reached the point where i've become nothing.

now i'm irrelevant to myself, trying to regain and sustain, hoping to go back and what i was and aim for a better version of myself.
i'm writing again but i dont know concentrate...
i hope you understand, i hope that you're not mad at me for not replying at your emails, i just needed time, and now... i'm going to post again, hoping to regain what ever sense i had, hoping to recognize myself and evolve.

Puase

this blog is currently on hiatus.

Wicked Intention.

I honestly envy your T-shirt
It gets to touch your body for hours
Your mirror being always alert
To show the beauty of your colours

The glasses covering your eyes
They got your eyes attention
Your lip gloss for being wise
To brighten my wicked intention

Even the belt you are wearing
It gets to surround your waist
And the music you are hearing
It gets to fill up your taste

Oh darling stay the way you are
I envy every material you're using
Your beauty is such a shiny star
Together with reality it's confusing

Got me captured in your eyes
The garden of flying colours
Of honey bees and butterflies
Among many self-propelled flowers

Oh darling to give you some tips
The truth of my wicked intention
Is to close my eyes kissing your lips
Mixing up the affliction with affection.



By: Vincent Valentine; 10/7/09, 7:35 am.

N word ends porn star career

Use Of 'N-Word' May End Porn Star's Career

Rudenko - Everybody

Rudenko - Everybody

Everybody [CD Single]

Silence

"Silence" is a song by Canadian electronic music group Delerium. The song was co-written by Canadian singer Sarah McLachlan, and she is featured as vocalist on the track. The song is often credited to be one of the best trance songs of all time, still playing in many clubs to this day

this is the DJ Tiesto mix, which is one of my all time favorites, i love this song, its one of my most played on my ipod.


Silence

2/8/1990 - Kuwait Was Burning

I wrote a very long topic about the iraqi invasion on kuwait...

i think it was over 500 words, i was extremly motivated and moved... it's one of my soft points and i always had negative feelings about this...

but instead of posting it i feel it would be better if i posted a couple of pictures i randomly googled online.

i will post the topic tonight if anyone is intrested in it... but the pictures will speak enough for me...

But now please log on to this website

http://www.freeq8.com/

And

Invasion Of Kuwait
To learn the truth about what happened...

We Might've Forgiven...
But We Haven't Forgotten...

The Beast.

Who are you in my life?
What are you doing in my room
In my dusty bed...
In my ghastly head
Words in my tongue...
I've never said
Is any of this actually real?
The way you satisfy me...
The way I feel...
The way you admire my manhood
The way you making me feel good
You say I am innocent and pure
Though of that I am not sure
I look at my shadow...

I see a Cerberus with three heads
The first is darkness...
The other is sadness...
And the last is madness
All under the candle's light
You come to me exposed
A feeling I can not fight
Not when the door is closed
Not when we share the same page...
All under the same book
The way you bite your own lip
And the way into my eyes you look
Giving my passion a reason to reborn
A sign for me to ride my unicorn

The personality of a lofty horse
The arrogance of irresistible force
The grasp to the elixir of life
Is when I touch your neck then grip
Pull you then bite your lower lip
Fight the Cerberus then close my eyes
And rise as I make my way inside
To the portal of infernal regions
Where devils hail with no dread to hide
Have you ever reached that point?
Where you can see beyond your sight
Where the light disguise the midnight
To realize the beast inside you is immortal
An avenger to who enter the forbidden portal.


By: Vincent Valentine, 5/6/2009, 12:00pm.

lazy days and me days

i always had a problem with lazy days, i don't know what to do in them, i like to clean and listen to relaxing music, like feist and nouvelle vague... some norah jones and a couple of shania's, but when i am done cleaning, i simply have nothing to do...
when i go abroad i like a glass of Chardonnay with a great book to humor me for a while, then i take myself out for a nice meal perhaps a movie.

these things i tend to do them alone allot, especially when i know that tomorrow will be a lazy day i turn it into a me day, which consist of bodily maintanance, like hair cuts, nail clipping, shaving, perhaps some light house work... it is a nice time to think alone and to tune/zone out everything else around me!

now, the glitch about lazy dayz and me days, they usually tend to be over protective of me, i mean i can't just invite or allow any one to share a me day, it will be an... us day!

which is kind of weird...
i tried this with a friend, he stayed over for a week in my flat, and on friday, i did the me day routine, he simply followed me and did everything i did, he enjoyed it, i enjoyed sharing it... but honestly, the reason i did enjoy it is because he didnt comment or argue...

i poured my self a glass, he did, i picked up a book, he did, i clipped my nails, he did, i cleaned the dishes, he dried them...
silently....

maybe i could make an exception...
but only if the person is silent...
i mean... if the person started picking on everything i do, it would be so annoying...
i rather do it alone, so... silence is my rule to share those days...

any way, peace out!

Cat Power - Fool

Why can’t we see our fortunancy
Living as legends have lived.
Bane and dismannered
We coax all the time
Knowing that nothing is left when we die

Come along Fool
A direct hit of the senses you are disconnected
It’s not that it’s bad…it’s not that it’s death
It’s just that it is on the tip of your tongue, and you're so silent

Wanting to live and laugh all the time
Sitting alone with you tea and your crime
Children with kids, and people with parents
Anywhich way there’s no past and no presence
When the day comes and all of them bums
Will reveal enchanting persons
Come along...

When it's a rut and baby's no luck
Half of it's misunderstanding love
The war we have won we're winning again
Within ourselves and within our friends
Come along...

Cat Power - Fool
To Buy You Are Free

old dogs should be put to sleep

i've dated oldies before, i have a taste for oldies, weither in music or in people... just like wine i beleive the older a person gets the more... wiser (tastier) they become, not that i am a romancer of the elderly, older for me doesn't stricly speak numbers.

to elaborate more, i like older but Preserved :D!you see there are some older people who take quite good care of themselves, they work out, eat healthy, they never smoke nor drink.some older people are healthier than 20 Y.O'S!if we wanna talk numbers, 30 is what classifies as older to me, the mid 20's is slightly older but still it's in my generation, being 20 myself, i am in a gab between to generation, which allows me access to as many feilds as one could desire.

but if we are going to be strict, if we are going to be bold, cruel but of course sexy and delicious on the side ;p, what are the rules to dating older people?when is the limit and where?would it be fair for a hip and trendy lad be hooked up with a boldie oldie?

first the rules:

1- if from far away you look like "mommy/son" "daddy/duaghter" thats a huge no no, it's simply outrageous, and unseemly!

2- if the older person cannot pass the generation gab, that's another no no, you don't want a person who doesnt know who garbage is, or didn't watch friends in a period of their lives.

3- the infant infection: it's when an old dog dresses up like a teen dog and talks about britney spears, or so on... people like this outta be shot, dress/talk your age, be young at spirit and do not use slang that only your kids can use, that will preserve your spot amongst the hot and sexy. - thats a tip for the older players -

4- if the saggs and bags are pleasently starring in the "bodily curves" do not approach, i repeat, DO NOT APPROACH!

5- if the person tend to be parenty, or mommy like, don't you dare get too deep into it, break it off as soon as you could, you already have a mom/dad, you do not need one who also has sex with you, it's sick!

6- useless oldies, i call them dogs who can't smell anymore... if they are not really active in the way you accuire them to, then... whats the point?

now, the limits:so i can't really tell you whats your limit, but i know mine, it's held up by the rules you've read earlier, if we look like mom/son, and if the partner can;t function and can;t get me, then there is no need for us to be together, and it might show from the first date, just be clear about your intentions becuase it's really disrespectful to waste people's time and effort.
but if we really want to talk timing, i suggest that you stop at 15, i mean a 15 year gab should be a conflict, people will recognize the age gab and they might judge and give you a hard time... but on the other hand if i know my blog readers then... "fuck it" should be running through your mind now.
now, if it's fair for the hip and sexy to be with an oldie boldie...

wanna go steady with me?

i've been dating someone who's rather out of my circle of usual dates, not that its a bad thing, its the tottal opposite, you see, this person i am dating doesnt waant to play the game!
i just kick back and be me, all my flaws are out on the open, so after 4 dates, i was asked to go steady...
when was the last time you heard that?
"wanna go study with me?"
well, i agreed, i mean, no fuss no drama no hard questions...
acceptance of flaws is rare, and concidering the fact that i am emotionally available, why should i say no?
i don't know where this is going, i still i don't know where my feet are, but honestly...
i am worried, i am wierded out and i am seriously out of my element, but i will tell you what happenes later.

Goofing Around ;p

my pallies and i!

Timaya

He Has A POINT!

Lily Allen - Chinese [Choir Tribute]

I teared up when i saw this!
as you know lily is one of my all time favs! this video was suggested to me via youtube suggestion bar, i logged in and i saw it, it's amazing!
here's the video info:

This is our choral tribute to Lily Allen who wrote this song for her mother, Alison Owen.

Orchestrated and Arranged by Rachel Santesso

**We have made our recording as a gift for you. If you'd like to download it for free, you can find it on our homepage: www.capitalchoir.com Enjoy! ***

Video by Alexandra Berglof
Recording engineers: Andrew Dudman and Sam Okell at Abbey Road Studios
studio footage filmed by Nick Marangoni

Madonna - Celebrate [Leaked Remix]

Maddo Is Back!

hitting the club with a forthcoming Greatest Hits CD, a Celebration is in order!

check out her Awesome Dub 12" remix by the one and only Oakenfold who matters, dont be fooled, it might sound like cheap degitallt mastered audio for the first 10 secs, but give it a listen and it'll be on your most played remixes ipod list!

thanks to the guys who sent me this link, i now can give it to you, but the link will be taken down when i make sure that its know enough and/or when madoona gives me a call and says remove it Byatch!

here's the link...

Celebrate [Oakenfold 12' Dub]

Madonna's Official Page

Enjoy!

and all my anger went away!

a hand grabbed my lower back to pull me in, hair was touching my face, a smell of lavinder mixed with an old memory just brushed in, a summer breese and a kiss to my neck...
with just that...
all my anger went away!
and all i see is blue skies and clear horrizons!

My Inner Me.

wait, first I wanna say; Sollai that bad kisser's subject was cool, new, creative, somehow funny, and TRUE!!. nicely done, very exciting.

Ok, My Inner Me;

Listening to the ticking of a clock
Imagining sinister images...
Within my cigarette's smoke

Talking to my inner me
Arguing for hours...
Aiming targets we can not see

Living our blazing past
Ignoring the future...
Though it's striking us fast

Though we have to admit
The time is unstoppable...
Forcing us to submit

And admit its a great folly
To act immortal...
While aging slowly

We know life is not flawless
We uncovered it's outer layer...
And discovered us being clueless

We looked into the globe of sin
And broken the arrow of faith...
Now neither of us is going to win

As we approach the end of continuity
The moment we looked at that globe...
We illuminated our true humanity

As we took the scorpion tail
On our heart we wrote with it...
Justice between us will not prevail

Written clearly by a venom ink
Now I am nearly devastated...
All I do is think, think and think

About my war between evil and good
The one manipulating my mind...
Became a punishment can't be understood

Somehow I always intend to look behind
For memories to dispel my inner me...
Something can stop it from eating my mind

Well eat it and continue to dwell
But the moment I find the promised door...
It will be the moment I shout; farewell.


By: Vincent Valentine; 19/5/2009, 11:10pm.

The stings with lovers: Bad Kissers

sorry everyone for not being a 100% disher about my thoughts these days, my new job, being the "ultimate single guy" takes all my times, any way, let me tell you something...
you know when the date goes so well, that conversations don't stop and luaghter becomes a star in the show instead of a guest star?
personally, o.k dates happen often, great ones on the other hand are quite a few... so when i have a great date, my mode elevates and i seriously concider more than a peck on the cheeck for a good night kiss :) (6) ;p~

so, at the end of the date, when you're at your dates car or door, you share a deep look and give it a go for a nice sweet kiss, maybe a whory one, depends on the criteria of your date :)

you expect a movie kiss, a hollywood lip lock or even a porno lusty make out session if you are a bit freaky, but as hopeful daters, "we" never expect a bad kiss....
a kiss so horrible that the moment you get in the car or leave the doors step, ur dates nuber is deleted and blocked by Viva's caller scensors.

bad kissers are there, bad kissers do excist, beware!
bad kissers are scary, bad kissers are... bad!!!
there are many types of bad kissers, and i am proud to say that i met a couple of them, here we will demonstrate some of them :D :

1. the bad breathe kisser: honestly, this could be fixed, once or twice but i will never carry a mint pack for my date, plus even if i do, everytime we kiss i will taste mint... i really like flavours, i mean i cant settle for just ment!
2. the licker kisser: yes, salivary bath for your teeth and facial area, no good, not really into tongue baths during kissing, tongue baths are enjoyable in other situations but not this one!
3. the biter and the slicer: the count dracula type, who bites while kisses, dont get me wrong, sexy bites are hot, like a gentle bite on the lip, sometimes a pain inflecting one to release more indorfins, but when blood or brusing is involved... i rather pass!
4. the salty drier: when your dates lips are salty and dry :), i dont think thats really appealing... is it? i mean some people wouldn't mind, i would, i like sweet lips, i am into sweets, i like sweets!
5. the diver: when a kiss is so deep, you're like at the bottom of the titanic, you just can't breathe and the pressure is... well smuthering! honestly i would like to breathe, i mean as humans we tend to like breathing... its a requirment for constant vitality... or so i've heard!
6. the mini-rapers: this is nice sometimes, when your date simply attacks you with deep kissing and nice rough touching, thats hot when your date is hot, but when you're not into your date... thats another story!
7. the stiffies: i just hate that kind of kissers! it feels as if a wall is kissing you... i mean why would i be kissed by wall? thats not fair? how about some movements!
8. the mutes: i tend to make a kissing sound, its a vital part of the kiss, but there are many people who do not make a sound, its like ur kissing a mute, or ur in a silent movie where sound is simply science fiction!
9. the fraction kiss: this not a type of a kisser no, its a bad kiss that i was introduced to a while back, which has the length of 2 fractures of a second... i just hate it, i dont think i need to explain!
10. the fish kisser: you how a fish moves its mouth? imagine that ur kissing a fish? would that be pleasant? i dont think so, having a still movement with no tricks or stunts is really boring! i rather go home and kiss my own gold fish!
11. the snake tongue: the horror! its the last kind i can remember, its when your date inserts their tongues into your mouth repeatedly and in a fast paste movement... just like a creepy snake, its annoying.... its bad!

the search of the perfect kisser is hopeless, we all do mistakes, but! we still can hope for improvments!

i did make several mistakes in my dating life, many many mistakes to be honest, bad kissing was a form of those mistakes, but in my defence i did it once or twice when i was uncomfortable!

having a good date is nice, but please dont ruin it with a bad kiss, if there is any unacceptable glitches in a date, bad kissing should be on the top of the deal breaking list!

ps: sorry for all the spelling and grammer mistakes, i wrote this very fast, i am going to tan now :D

and oh, when i say we in a topic... it means me and the voices in my head ;p~ J/K!

I Go to sleep

Sia - I Go To Sleep
Some People Have Real Problems

Deep, moving and simply human.

Appears - Huanting

"Appears" is the eleventh single released by Ayumi Hamasaki, the amazingly talented japanese songstress did an amazing job on this son, but with the greatest dj of our time Armin van buuren, a massive smash into your system hits with no mercy, as the beats fuse and take you into places you never knew excisted... Ayu who is major in japan, is also famous for her huanting remixes, this one in perticular will change your thoughts about Armin/Ayu if you ever had disliking thoughts regarding them.

i am posting this because it's huanting me!
and as i am moving on with my life, i usually have my music guiding me, this song is one of the songs that are helping me grow, and realize my true potentials, many things happened, i will tell you about it soon i promise, just give me time to know whats going on with my life...
with love...

"Appears" (Armin van Buuren's Rising Star 12" Mix)
Buy The Single
Buy The Album

Liquid.

At last I found my refuge
For all the time I was homeless
Confused, injured and hopeless
I found you and loved you...
Into my heart you knew how to sneak
Perfectly used your romantic technique

Easily collected all my tears
Peacefully threw them in the ocean
Where have you been all these years?
When I needed all these true emotion
When I needed to feel that I am alive
With someone teaching me how to survive

In such a careless cruel life...
Filled with sinful creatures
Hidden behind angels features
Where have you been when I was crying?
When I was dying and drying...
I wish there's a word that can express...

All my love to you... my dear
I guess its too much to be written here...
Maybe I will just name it liquid...
Because its so flexible and transparent
It can be strong yet also weak
It can be a tear drop rolling your cheek

It can be water... it can be alcohol
It can reach your heart through your soul
It can spread yet won't seperate...
Because it's the quality of being great
Because you can see it glowing...
Also toward you its flowing...

Because its liquid it can be everywhere...
Maybe a rain drop sliding your hair
Down to your upper lip it will slip
You will taste it and feel my love
You will admire it and ask for more
Melted snow is what you're searching for

Or maybe any similarity to my love...
Something that can truly bright..
That can flies through the light
To your ear it will whisper slowly
A volley of loving words...
The sound of fighting swords

Of tenderness within a windy breeze
Of crashing waves singing their seas
The sound of I love you is what you hear...
Trying to say I want you with me here
Trying to forget that you're so far away
And remember your smile to brighten my day.

By: Vincent Valentine; 23/4/2009, 4:30pm.

Rapping Flight Attendent

Thats just awesome!
i wanna do that!

WOW Account Cancled!

...
Just watch, it feels like a pokemon is trying to evolve or a rakoon being trapped in a washing machine!

the circus

as the three muskateers got fed up/done with finals, they decided to go out and have fun!
well the three muskateers and luke!

with the tune of sex and the city in luke's head, the tune of ghost wisperer in shoug heads and big bang theory in talals, i was left tune-less after i realized that i looked like ten miles of bad road!

somehow i had unruly hair! a weird patch of facial hair and dark circles under my eyes!
what happened?

so i got all pissed and tried to call it off, but apparently, i dont always look like a young marlon brando! - i know there is not similarity but you dont have to be bitchy! -so after the harsh realization, i got myself fixed, and i looked like myslef again.so, long story short!luke drove us to the circus!it was awesome!

we saw the bearded lady, the jugeling boy, the fire breathing triplets, the dork, the tiger trainer and his tigers, but what i really enjoyed, the knife knight!

he is a master in throwing knifes, it is/was fascinating! so, he got his assistant to be crucified - momentarily ofcourse! - and got her spinning, then, he started throwing his knifes, out of no where! WOW!

i was freaked out! - in a good way! -so when he started to ask for one person to volenteer for his hand show, i jumped screaming "anna anna" which means me me!
thats when shoug elbowed me in the stomach!but i kept on shouting!

so, i was picked, 2nd after a slutty 7 year old girl! - she was wearing strabless minni dress -!!!when that whory girl is done, i fluttered -just like a tranny prostitute in new jersy running to her pick up! - or so i've been told by luke, who by the way got elbowed too

!now, the guy instructed me to throw the knife, he got behind me, and helped me throw it..I HIT THE SPOT!

Like OMG right?i havent done anything new in ages!after this i promised myself to do new stuff and to re-new my life, at least to feel alive again!

..(K) luke!!

Mess Interpreted

long video no need to watch it coz i just woke up and recorded it!

Manel - Leche Leche

Ps: ... I'm Back Bitchs!!!!

the little angel

she was just a little girl, she wanted to be a princess, an astronaut, a ballerina, a doctor and most of all she wanted to be a monkey!
she is alive on candy, she really likes candy, parents locked the candy in a cabinet so she would eat her veggies :)
the girl was a star in KG, the lead kid in the musical, the kid was adorable, she had the corckiest laugh, she loved tv, she copied her favorite cartoon characters, she loved to sing and most of all, she was a big fat liar.
the kid got abused, but she never understood it, she used to be beaten up for her little faliures, you know like loosing some money, she listened though, she really was kind hearted, i mean it showed, she was such a good girl, she stole though, candy from the cabinet and from the KG box, she skipped the classes to go to the music room, she really loved music, she wanted to play the piano, but they gave her the drums, so she settled, at least she sat close to it, she really couldn't relate to the other kids, no one realized that, but she did, she was just questioning why she has no friends, but as time went by, she had more things to think about, all she wanted is to impress her parents, she had weird parents, abusive father and emotionally shattered mother with no personality.
the thing with the girl is that she grew up to be a bright student, somehow she wasn't comprehending what she feels, she didn't know she was sad, she kept on asking herself questions that honestly no adult could ever answer.
people wanted their kids to be a splitting image of her, they wished she was theirs, i mean what else would any parent want, smart kid, pretty, polite, i mean she was the trophy kid!
but she stole and lied!
i mean yes she was abused and beaten weekly, sometimes daily, but why did she lie and steal?
no one really knew why, i mean she was fed and clothed, she had a roof over head, why would she lie? why would she steal?
why would she be chicken of other kids?
why would she get a lower grade than a full mark?
she is fed and clothed!
she is fuckin' fed and clothed!!! why isn't she getting full grades?
why is she getting 4/5? why not 5/5?
this kid need to be disciplined!
and so she was... a couple of slaps, a couple of bambo sticks dancing on her spine, she became an A student.
she grew up... had sex in a bathroom.
a public bathroom.
years later, she fell in love, but it didn't quite work out...
any way...
the little angel is now shattered to pieces, last time i saw her she was giving her self to any one who wants to take her home...
the little angel doesnt lie anymore...
the little angel doesnt steal candy anymore...
the little angel is now my best friend, and i am gonna take care of her now, because the little angel just died in my arms...
promising that she will never lie again...
promising to never steal candy again...

Collect Me.

Don't follow me I think I am lost
Don't ask me where to go...
I am just walking on the coast
With a mind about to blow

Like a miner I dig and drill
My own mind's history...
Searching for answers still
To reveal my hidden mystery

Between the leaves of your tree
I see light breaking through
Trying to set my mind free
Trying to give my mind a clue

What kind of path is mine...
Leading to the city of illusion
Pushing me a cross the line
To the point of so much confusion

Don't get decieved by my look
My pain is internal ignore...
Read my shouts a mysterious book
I shall name it the promised door

Sadly, my shouts isn't strong enough...
To break all the spreading ice
My heart is tired of being tough
Of a destiny based on random dice

Everything around me is so cold
Can you feel my words speaking loud !?
My heart... my mind... I will explode !
Can you hear my whispers within my crowd !?

Of course you can't and will not bother
Of course it's hard to understand my brain
Complicated puzzles, one inside another
Ends with the remaining ashes of my pain

Collect me before I disappear
I am fainting away with the wind
To some where far away from here
So far to the furthest dead end

Collect me before I lose control
Before the sand mixes my remaining ashes
Collect me before I leave my soul
Before I fall seeing all my memory flashes.

By: Vincent Valentine, 13/4/2009, 6:00am.

Realm of Queer.

I wait, yet what for?
For a complete disappear?
For a promised day?

To devour me more...
Into the realm of queer...
Perhaps I should stay

Or maybe try the realm's door
Why should I fear?
I am ruined anyway...

Perhaps it's time to explore
There must be a reason I am here
Maybe the day is today...

Maybe I am sick of this crowded town
So many moving things, so many people
Hateful gargoyles staring at me down
Built naturally just to enfeeble

Every remaining true sense
Every pool I made by tears
My old passion my true essence
Falling surge of massive fears

Yelling at me... wait no more
Behind your shadow you can't hide
Go in the door of folklore
A twinkle wasp shall be your guide

To the land of beautiful lenience
Rhymed by the murmur of a drone
With the magical melody of silence
I cleave the mist wondering alone

The realm of spectral light
Of flying mushrooms around
Tranquil gist of true bright
Wihin the land of floating ground

I stand on a huge oyster shell
With emerald pearl in the middle
Surrounded by trees with ginger smell
I stand alone enjoying the riddle

The vision of unlimited dream
Of pure natural atmosphere
Surrounded by geyser's warm steam
I venture exploring the realm of queer

A place I can be alone by my own
Ascending to the peak of my mind
No one to argue with, no ringing phone
Hidden in a place you can never find

I got rid of the compass and my map
Just swimming in my dreams non-stop
Enjoying the fantasy of my longest nap
Let me dream, let me never wake up.


By: Vincent Valentine, 26/3/2009, 2:00am.

Mr. Salman ;p

Faded moon.

Like an angel fell from the sky
Like a remedy to my broken heart
Snatched me up somewhere high...
Excessive happiness from the start

Perfect shape, amazing style
Phenomenal, gorgeous and adorable
The way you talk the way you smile
It's just so insanely incredible

Yet I knew the wind is coming soon
To dampen this lovely candle...
I knew it's going to be a faded moon
It's just too much for me to handle

You deserve real joy... you really do
I am a ghost... I am simply not real
An easy choice between false or true...
My wounds are too much for you to heal

So since we both know what's up...
And since the beginning is the end
Let's not make this moment a stop...
I'll be glad to have you as a friend.


By Vincent Valentine; 14/3/2009, 5:30 am.

To S.

my friend shoug called me the other day and i started telling her a few things about whats going on.

the cinversation was long, and she ended it up with "babe, untill you learn to love yourself, you will never know how to love any body else"

Darkness embrace.

It's been a long time
Where are you hiding?
I miss your hungry touch
I miss you so much
I miss your darkness
It always shines...
Why do you have to hide?
Inside your demonic shrine
You know you're mine
Admit it... do it...

You want to kill my soul?
Here... it's inside
Do whatever you want
I will always be here
I will always be fine
Waiting for every tear
Cry to me, I thirst to drink
Cry more... I want to sink
I love to live it...
When we torture each other

At least we can feel...
Don't you agree?
Or does it bother?
When I force you to kneel
You know the lore...
We lived it together
Torture me, I dazzle you more
Give me yourself...
I give you something real...
It's called love my dear

It's called my biggest fear
When you waste it like that...
When you shout my name
Out of the universe...
When you release your evil voice
To grow the roots of my curse
When you do your lovely things
Delicacy frosting my intense
Ethereal beauty burning my sense
When you crumble between my arms

When you rush me like the blizzard
When you set my heart on hazard
I just miss you so much...
When you bite my ear, whispering
We don't have time to sleep
We have a journey together...
Me and you inside each other
Searching for our souls somewhere deep
Where the devils and angels fight
Where the darkness embrace the light

Where we finally find our souls
Then abandon each other...
Torturing each other, suffering together
Can't you see? blink your eyes...
We're injured by our pain eternity
When we will rest in tranquility?
Can't we just repeat the dream again?
Can't you just vanish my pain?
By looking at my eyes... saying;
I am here... it's me... its reality.

By: Vincent Valentine, 7/3/09, 12:30pm.

Walker of my path.

Who am I?
Where am I?
Someone justify!
Why my heart is too lost
Why it's suffering the most
Someone tell me why?

Falling to my vanquish
Drowning in my anguish
Tasting my insanity
Fighting against the gravity
Through the magnetic sphere...
I squall out my only wish

To know the answer of my question
Who am I?
Between all the agony near by
And my fragile heart
Between the flashes of your face
And myself falling apart

In your throne of deceive
In your hunger to reave
My inert soul...
Like the black widow
Capture then weave
To throw me in the black hole

Of pain amplify
Faces asking why
Imps brain washing
Harpies heart crashing
Foreign strangers...
Wondering who am I?

I am a walker of my path
Of falling angels
Of burning candles...
Where my brain thinks odd
My heart cries blood
My soul flies to God

Don't you ask me who am I
I don't know anymore
I am the word ignore
I am the so much gore
I am a walker of my path...
Leading me to the promised door.


By: Vincent Valentine; 20/2/2009, 5:20pm.

The End.

I have to keep walking till the end
I know I am tired and hollowed
I just have to keep walking
Never dare to look behind me...
I know I am being followed

Just keep on walking till the end

Climbing up the foggy mountains
Up high to the edge of insomnia
Through the grievous needles
I bleed rain to imbue my well...
Of wielding the hope insignia

Just keep on walking till the end

Swimming to the sunken paradise
Deep down to the deepest core
It's written in the mystic scroll
Somewhere in the no where...
You will find the promised door

Just keep on walking till the end

Searching inside my white forest
For the blossom of my ecstasy
The palm of my passion stream
Between the snowy dead trees...
The path to the land of fantasy

Just keep on walking till the end

Upon the shore near the burning ocean
The island of shiny diamond sand
Lies the stairs to the highest skies
Of twenty three million steps...
To find upon the clouds there's a land

Just keep on walking till the end

Exploring the cave under your desert
Inside the monsters den you bow
For when your river suddenly stops
For when your ground swallows you
You know there's no turning back now

Just keep on walking till the end

No matter how hard your path is
How furiously your hearts rend
When your tears split for more tears
You know you have to keep walking...
For may you reach the endless end.

By: Vincent Valentine, 10/2/2009, 2:30am.

Rain drop.

I found so much pain in each heart
So many tears, so many unfair facts
I don't know from where I can start
Where ever I look I find painful impacts

If I shall ask, ask the criminals
What's the pleasure of the knife?
If I could, I would ask the animals
What's your feeling toward life?

I'd ask the sheep about tomorrow
Knowing the butcher's job is to slaughter
The bird inside the cage of sorrow
The fish getting dragged out of water

There is just so much pain around
And it's not only you the one suffers
Don't you bow your head to the ground
Look at yourself comparing to others

Like an anaconda around me you coil
You got me a lover, you got me a prey
Like the snow I fall when you blood boil
You got me a lover, shall never betray

As we hug underneath this rain fall
Stop thinking about our so much pain
Just immobilize your mind and soul
And continue kissing me under this rain

On my cheek slide your lovely fingers
The rain of so much pain started to stop
Continue kissing me as the rain lingers
Don't let go till the last rain drop.


By: Vincent Valentine, 26/1/2009 1:45pm.

Revenant.

Why you chose to inhabit my soul?
Tell me what the hell do you seek?
Your revenant keeps on haunting me
Why don't you look at me and speak?

Why do you reflex with silence?
Why do you follow me where ever I go?
I can see you behind me right now
A reflected image on my crystal glow

How dare you follow me to my altar?
Inside my millennium frozen sanctuary
Where I've been hiding my holy relics
For ten times of each damned century

How could you pass inside my abyss?
The tunnel of unholy famish ghouls
Where are all the servants of time?
Who dare to break my frozen rules

Cyclops; arise the undead skeletons
Shake the ground for the goblins legion
Uncover the moon for the werewolves
A revenant stepped on my altar's region

You can follow me where ever I reside
But not my frozen sanctuary not this time
Show me your ignorance against my minions
Of elite brutality and merciless sublime

A Minotaur with the skin of leopard
A thorny worm of my white quick sand
A gloomy golem of the sanctuary sewers
The saboteur with the poison ivy hand

All the time I've guarded my sanctuary
No one defeated the creatures I designed
How could you conquer all my imagination
And keep on flying around and over my mind

Why can't I forget that I loved you once
How could the time failed to erase my memory
All the time I tried not to think of you
You're standing still repeating our history

At this moment your revenant looking at me
Right on this moment as I write this poem
I am seeing your revenant speaking silence
Speaking about me never finding a new home.

By Vincent Valentine: 21/1/2009 4:45am.

JUICY

Yall Know my flare for japanese pop!
Koda Kumi's Hot Single "JUICY", Is all about sexy, hot, sweaty, ruanchy Dancing!
what speaks my language better than that?!
watch for yourself!

Black Cherry is the album you can find this song on, and ofcourse "4 hot wave"
the quart. A-side single, but honestly, black cherry is what you want!

To Buy Black Cherry
"Which features 5 personal fav's of her discography!!"

Koda Kumi - Black Cherry
To Download "JUICY"
JUICY

Enjoy!